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Today…

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It’s been a few years nows since I have embraced the thought that “this is my life and I am responsible for everything going on in it right now” – this isn’t to say that there isn’t a larger power at hand, because I truthfully do believe there is and that power is infinitely wiser and more forgiving than I am; however I have spent a good part of the last 18 months surrendering to the fact that my fear has led me down some pretty gnarly roads and I have fully allowed it, in fact embraced it.

It’s sometimes hard to look in the mirror and know that your decisions have made you arrive at the destination of today but I instead choose to use it as motivation ~ motivation to know that in this moment, I have the power to change any of it, I have the power to grow, to choose love, to start over, to forgive, to embrace this moment and make my life better than the past would have allowed. Today is the gift and regardless of where you came from, whatever story you may be telling yourself – today, you have the power to change, to take responsibility and do better.

xo nicki

Where the Truth Lies

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On this rainy Saturday morning as the craziness of our weekend is about to begin I realize that I have found where my truth lies and it literally could bring me to tears to know that after 29 years, 2 months and 22 days I am finally home, nestled in close to exactly what my truth is. Like the sun coming over the mountains in the morning, that shining light within me is burning brilliantly clear, uncompromised by fear, still, beautiful. Although I believe that life is a journey not a destination, today on this morning, I see all the beauty that I have been working so diligently on uncovering for the past 18months.

And now the real work begins ~ going out into this world every day and staying present to the truth, remaining connected, being aware and continuing to seek out the love in every moment.

So my question to you is have you found where your truth lies?

Maybe you think its just a little to woo-woo? or just a lot of work? or maybe you’re afraid. The beautiful thing is that your truth is going to look different that mine – that your journey home is going to be entirely different, your demons are only yours, you truth only yours – but as I sit here in this place, a place of unwavering love for who I am, acceptance, peace and total surrender to the life I was born to lead, I say seek; seek out what your truth is and feel what love truly is.

xo nicki

Putting up walls where there should only be windows…

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I am starting to notice a reoccurring trend – whenever I get a moment of inspiration, get on a roll, or get overly excited about a new idea, only moments later, I seem to stop in my tracks and the inspiration fizzles. It is something that has been niggling at me for the past few months and I couldn’t seem to figure out why – that was until I couldn’t sleep last night and it hit me… I have a massive, paralyzing fear of failing.

I mean it is so obvious that I am sure most people looking in would see but for some reason I have kept it harboured in my subconscious until last night and it all seemed to come into complete focus with resounding clarity.

I have suffered from a fear of failing my whole entire life – propelled by the need to feel successful according to everyone else’s standards, comparing myself to my successful ‘friends’ (yep even the Facebook  and twitter ones) and constantly feeling the fear that perhaps there is a chance that this business (that I) will FAIL.

Just saying it out loud scares me – I mean who fails in life? And then I take a moment, calm the panic inside and breath. Who doesn’t fail? Don’t get me wrong, I  fail every day and always beat myself up about it- but overall I strive to succeed in a completely overachieving unhealthy way. I have built up a massive wall around myself because of this and it’s totally ridiculous now that it is so clear.

So now I am in the process of starting to put up windows where those walls existed and begin to surrender this fear, let it go completely and know that miracles large and small will now have a means in which to enter.

xo nicki

The Mirror Inside

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Well it’s been awhile since the last time I sat down at the computer but I have spend the last couple weeks really looking inward and challenging some of my belief systems. I know how I want to live my life, but sometimes living it is a whole-nother ball game – and that is what I have spend the last couple weeks contemplating. Why? Why I am standing in my own way? Why am I allowing my toxic negative thoughts consume me somedays? Why do I have no problem talking negatively about some of the pessimistic people in my life?

When I have moments like I have had the last couple weeks, clarity begins to restore itself but it takes a long cold look at the mirror inside to see what it is I have been reflecting to the world – and it hasn’t been pretty. But the thing I love most is that it only takes one moment to completely change it. I like to get back to the basics of what I love – this weekend, I spent time in my garden, danced a little by myself, went to a hockey game with my family, baked some good for you cookies and changed the way I was feeling- because in all honesty, I have no business with being negative. I have far to many amazing people, who do nothing but fill me up with gratitude and love and things in my life to ever complain.

I have never understood why it is so much easier to talk about what we don’t have than what we do have – why is the basis of so many relationships built on tearing other people down? Why does complaining make us feel better for a moment? I can only chalk it up to fear – it takes so much more courage to stand against what everyone else at the water station is doing but this has become my new mission. I am only interested in going into this world with love, one step at a time. And I am only interested with talking to myself with respect- cause if you heard the way I talk to myself sometimes, people would truly wonder.

The key to life is not rocket science – it really isn’t – but it takes a great deal of courage and determination – just be happy. be grateful for what you have. be open to new opportunities. and walk this planet with love for every single thing around you. because life is just to damn short.

xo nicki

The Accountablility Factor

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I always shake my head when I hear people complain about how unhappy they are with their current circumstances and although I do often do this myself, I know better…. I know that everyone one of us has the ability to simply change and find the happiness within that circumstance. I know that looking at the positive will not only change your outlook, it will change your opportunities.

It’s a hard pill to swallow for some people to realize they hold the key to their own happiness – personally I find it empowering, the greatest adventure, my reason for living. I have never understood ‘choosing miserable’, ‘choosing hard’ or ‘choosing struggle’ – who wants to spend their life-like that?

At the end of the day, you are only accountable to yourself – you and you alone- and regardless of your circumstance, situation or past choices, start today. Today instead of struggle, choose peace, choose happiness, choose joy because there is no one telling you otherwise.

xo nicki

Beauty in Words… entry #10

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“May today there be peace within. May you trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith in yourself and others.  May you use the gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content with yourself just the way you are.  Let this knowledge settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.”

In the last day this has become my new mantra, I love what it says on every level – each new sentence has so much wisdom I can hardly wait to read the next. But this came to me at the exact moment I needed it too, a reminder of the journey and of all the infinite possibilities there are in this life. No one is held to their circumstance, that is just the right now and you have the ability to change it in that moment – to look at the positive and to remind yourself of all the amazingly beautiful gifts you have been given and then to go out into the world and share them.

xo nicki

The Art of Happy

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I have noticed more and more that there seems to be an increase of attention around the art of being happy and what that small change in attitude can bring to your life. As I read through a few of these articles, I began to see a change in my own perception. I completely wholeheartedly buy in to the ‘happiness factor’ and I try to live my life focusing on joy each and every day but I sometimes find myself automatically seeing the negative, so I put together a little reminder list of things I can do to stay in the ‘happy’.

~ Live out of LOVE – pure, whole love – for yourself, the people in your life, your job, the earth and everything that crosses your path.

~ Wake up each and every day thinking about what you are grateful for. Even if you can only think of a few things (although if you really start thinking about it, I am sure you have so much more to be thankful for), say them over and over again as you start your morning routine. Being grateful for the people and things you have in your life will open up opportunities that will be life changing.

~ Always look at the positive. We all have unhappy moments in life but as those moments are happening, try to stay focused on the positive and if that is impossible, think of something completely different that makes you happy. When we complain, argue or think negative thoughts; we only feed more and more into negative opportunities to come into our lives.

~ Begin to eliminate the people or things that make you unhappy. This can sometimes be an uncomfortable process as so many of us feel ‘obligated’ to fulfill so many demands. In order to live your most happy life, you need to remove as much ‘should haves’ as possible and start filling your days with ‘want to’s’. This will transform you from the inside out.

Let your own happiness guide you and I promise your life will instantly become more beautiful and fulfilling.

xo nicki