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Ok so here is the skinny – tomorrow I am embarking on a 21 day Crazy Sexy Adventure Cleanse that is sure to rock me to the core. For the past year and I half, I have been tossing around the idea of going plant powered (veganism) to get me through each day. It was a decision that was met with criticism from myself and that every eager voice to pipe up and tell me (along with a few other people in my life) that I can’t do it, that its too hard.

The truth is that I, for the previous 27 1/2 years was powered by cheeseburgers and chocolate cake and an intense fear of feeling anything. I used food as my shield, as my protector, as my guidance and escape and now looking back can see a sad un-passioned young woman just looking to love herself.

The constant back and forth of inhaling a cupcake and then turning around and skipping meals to make up for it, the self loathing for allowing myself to give in to the constant urge to numb myself. Well the last year and half has been exactly the opposite – searching to un-numb my soul and food was the last and most scariest task to tackle.At the end of the day all you pile onto your plate is fear and oppression, wishing for something more beautiful,  hoping that one day will be different.

So now after reading and teasing myself about everything vegan, I have decided it is time. Time to stop waning for the ‘right’ opportunity when we don’t have a wedding to go to. The time is now and couldn’t be more serendipitous as I embark on a very very important month in my life. So loaded with veggies, green smoothies and green tea, I am changing my perspective and releasing those fears as I go, ready for my soul to shine even brighter, to ignite with more passion as I release all the junk that’s been built up for the past 29 years.

So here is to peace and veggies as Kris Carr would say

xo nicki

Gettin My Hands Dirty

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Well life here has been a tornado of awesomeness over the past 6 weeks. I have been stirring up my big pot of “lets get this shit started” soup and I am so giddy to share it with you. When you truly realize your life’s truth there is nothing that can distract you, nothing that can slow you down, no one can tell you NO, you can’t do it and I am so fully committed to spreading the love that is brewin within me –

I seriously am exploding!

So wondering what the heck am I talking about…..? I thought you would never ask.

Daring to Live is about to kick it up a notch…. a major notch, we are about to enter Daring to Live 2.0 and if I may say so – it is going to kick some major ass in your life if you are ready to join me.

SO cupcake – no more excuses for not getting in the game, no more holding back… in another month from now we are going to launch this puppy and because you have been such amazing faithful inspiring accountability butt kicking partners in crime there are going to be some juicy juicy love bursting pressies for you.

SO ARE YOU READY?

Really ready to do this?

I hope so and I hope you will tell the world with me.

Cause quite frankly – the world could always use another bold daring kick ass chica.

 

xo nicki

 

Putting up walls where there should only be windows…

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I am starting to notice a reoccurring trend – whenever I get a moment of inspiration, get on a roll, or get overly excited about a new idea, only moments later, I seem to stop in my tracks and the inspiration fizzles. It is something that has been niggling at me for the past few months and I couldn’t seem to figure out why – that was until I couldn’t sleep last night and it hit me… I have a massive, paralyzing fear of failing.

I mean it is so obvious that I am sure most people looking in would see but for some reason I have kept it harboured in my subconscious until last night and it all seemed to come into complete focus with resounding clarity.

I have suffered from a fear of failing my whole entire life – propelled by the need to feel successful according to everyone else’s standards, comparing myself to my successful ‘friends’ (yep even the Facebook  and twitter ones) and constantly feeling the fear that perhaps there is a chance that this business (that I) will FAIL.

Just saying it out loud scares me – I mean who fails in life? And then I take a moment, calm the panic inside and breath. Who doesn’t fail? Don’t get me wrong, I  fail every day and always beat myself up about it- but overall I strive to succeed in a completely overachieving unhealthy way. I have built up a massive wall around myself because of this and it’s totally ridiculous now that it is so clear.

So now I am in the process of starting to put up windows where those walls existed and begin to surrender this fear, let it go completely and know that miracles large and small will now have a means in which to enter.

xo nicki

Merry Christmas

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“Love is what it is in the room on Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen”

Merry Christmas to you and your entire family. I hope you are filled with peace, love and joy this Christmas.

xo nicki